 My life really sucks doesn't it?  Saturday, September 25, 2010
Hey~ first REAL post, lol. still ahve to change the theme tho since it doesn't suit me at all this theme I have now... anyways here's first post, It's depressing so if you don't like "emo" people you can go :P kekeke
I really feel bad , I don't want to pity myself because it sounds really bad, but I feel like in people's minds, whenever they befriend with me, in their minds they see "perfect, an easy person I can bully whenever I feel like.." Since lower school I've been bullied, since I remember my self, in fifth and sixth grade there was this guy, who hated me, and since I was always very emotional saw me as a target. One night we had a party of my classmate and friend, she was always very nice to me, and I felt loved. At that night I got beaten up by this guy, he called me names and nobody helped me, I cried so much, even now if I'm to tell it to someone face to face I shed a tear. My mother went to the police and complained, after that I was ignored, nobody, even my best friend didn't talk to me. That guy turned everybody against me. It's good that after sixth grade we switch school, I felt like I could start over again in that new place. I decided I won't be as weak and open anymore, and closed myself more at my middle school years, still I got to have a lot of friends. Though guys still felt nice bullying me, I stood up against them (differently from lower school years) but they didn't seem to bother, now I'm a freakin' Junior in an American school. My best friends find it fun to laugh at my pronunciation mistakes, and when I make a mistake I would always be a laughing stock, I never look graceful enough to anybody...
Even though I know my friends love me, it hurts to know they have chances to bully me with words, it hurts my heart, and last night I cried knowing that I'm just to easy, for them it's just like teasing a baby, and I can never show my real smart side, because of people like that, I'm looked at, why can't I learn that lesson I've passed through so many times?
Friends are trouble.
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My life really sucks doesn't it? Saturday, September 25, 2010
Hey~ first REAL post, lol. still ahve to change the theme tho since it doesn't suit me at all this theme I have now... anyways here's first post, It's depressing so if you don't like "emo" people you can go :P kekeke
I really feel bad , I don't want to pity myself because it sounds really bad, but I feel like in people's minds, whenever they befriend with me, in their minds they see "perfect, an easy person I can bully whenever I feel like.." Since lower school I've been bullied, since I remember my self, in fifth and sixth grade there was this guy, who hated me, and since I was always very emotional saw me as a target. One night we had a party of my classmate and friend, she was always very nice to me, and I felt loved. At that night I got beaten up by this guy, he called me names and nobody helped me, I cried so much, even now if I'm to tell it to someone face to face I shed a tear. My mother went to the police and complained, after that I was ignored, nobody, even my best friend didn't talk to me. That guy turned everybody against me. It's good that after sixth grade we switch school, I felt like I could start over again in that new place. I decided I won't be as weak and open anymore, and closed myself more at my middle school years, still I got to have a lot of friends. Though guys still felt nice bullying me, I stood up against them (differently from lower school years) but they didn't seem to bother, now I'm a freakin' Junior in an American school. My best friends find it fun to laugh at my pronunciation mistakes, and when I make a mistake I would always be a laughing stock, I never look graceful enough to anybody...
Even though I know my friends love me, it hurts to know they have chances to bully me with words, it hurts my heart, and last night I cried knowing that I'm just to easy, for them it's just like teasing a baby, and I can never show my real smart side, because of people like that, I'm looked at, why can't I learn that lesson I've passed through so many times?
Friends are trouble.
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